Thursday 19 March 2020

Real Life Check In: Anxiety & the Pandemic, How Am I Coping??

How are we doing my loves?? I know I haven't written on this particular blog since 2015, but boy do I need to talk.
As a person with social anxiety, this feels like I should be excited to not have to socialize, but my other anxiety is seeing the worst-case scenario of this and wondering just how the world is going to go down. Will there be global ramifications?? Of course and how will that impact us here in the US?? I'm panicking and don't have anywhere to put all the anxiety.  Where are the Winchester Brothers when you need them to stop the end of the world??? If I were Christian this would be one of the Horsemen riding and heralding the end of the world and just iCan't.

Last week I ended up going to the doctor because of back pain that lasted more than five days and wasn't remedied by OTC medication. Turns out I had pancreatitis and needed immediate gallbladder surgery. It's been five days and watching the news as the world and our government slowly implode has not been good for my mental health. Yeah I know I could stay off social media and distance that way, but guess what I can't I work in healthcare so daily what we need to do changes. Even while I'm out of work for the next few days until I'm cleared to return to full duties I'm still talking with my co-workers and learning what the new updates are because I need to know how it's going to impact my return.

I also feel like an idiot because I am an extreme couponer who decided to take a hiatus due to our home being completely filled with products and now that we are on the downswing of my pantry we get hit with this pandemic, to say I'm fucking pissed is an understatement. I felt the call to start a small scale prepper food pantry three years ago and I really did a good job of making it a working pantry with long term products stacked up, and then I ran out of room, and it didn't seem like anything was going to kick off so I decided to stop couponing. Now the couponing policies have drastically changed, some of the coupon values are less than stellar and instead of getting it free like we used to there is a cost now. And boom PANDEMIC!!!!

I'm also realizing I never went beyond the first few pages of the book on prepping that I had. I kept putting it off, I have half-ass plans in place for my car, for the parents' house but none of them solid, None of the pages complete and I feel like a failure which doesn't help much.   I mean I had two years' worth of food, which we have only started to go through and now the pandemic hits and there are so many holes in my prep I want to scream and unlike before I don't have the financial freedom to do the complete prep like before. It's sobering to realize this.

It's worse because I've seen all those discovery channel pandemic documentaries talking about what would happen here in the US and watching it unfold is scary as fuck. Even worse having lived through Hurricane Gilbert and the devastation to Jamaica and knowing that untouched traumas and things are coming up because of this situation now??!! This isn't a wow is me, I know I'm beyond privileged in some aspects, hell I have the internet to sit down and bitch about this. I'm bitching about not having enough instead of not having any at all. I think for me to not feel powerless in this, I'm going to share with you how I'm coping. What steps I'm taking to get ready, to plug the holes in our plans, to have the bug out plan ready.

What are you doing to cope?? I'm trying not to create unrealistic lists of things to get, I'm trying to be good and just think rebuild by two weeks then three then a month.

How is your anxiety my loves?? Are you one of the few who can work from home?? Or are you like me an out in front working in the 'essential jobs"?? What's it look like in your area??

Remember to wash your hands, physically distance and take mental health breaks.
Drink lots of water my loves
With the Goddess's Blessings and Love

Thursday 1 October 2015

31 Days of Samhain: The 2015 Edition. Day 1

Hi my loves, long time no see.

I know it's been two years since I have been here and I missed you guys so much. I've been gone for a while and been struggling on how to come back so I decided to just come on back, no big to do just come back and enjoy my writing and sharing with you.

This month I plan to vlog and blog and share all the fun I'm having this month reveling in the season. I have some projects I wish to share, some ideas for the season and some shopping events I wish to go to, and I want you to come along.

Are you planning to do anything fun?? Share down below.

Thank you and happy Samhain season.

Tuesday 3 December 2013

Book Review and Giveaway: Christian Louboutins

Hello there lovely readers. Please do a quick detour over to the Bewitching Bibliophile Book Blog and check out the latest book review and enter for a chance to win a pair of Christian Louboutins. Information about entering is in the bottom of the review!!

Book Title: Gabriel's Inferno Book 3: Gabriel's Redemption
Author:  Sylvain Reynard |Website| TwitterFacebook|
Publisher: Berkley Trade
Genre:  Erotica Romance
Series/Standalone: Series Book 3
Format: ebook/paperback
Cost: $7.99, $9.41
Pages: 496
How I got it: NetGalley
Purchase:Amazon Barnes & Noble | Publisher
Shelfablilty: Must Read It
Season: All Year
Add To Goodreads
Professor Gabriel Emerson has left his position at the University of Toronto to embark on a new life with his beloved Julianne. Together, he’s confident that they can face any challenge. And he’s eager to become a father. But Julianne’s graduate program threatens Gabriel’s plans, as the pressures of being a student become all consuming. When she is given the honor of presenting an academic lecture at Oxford, Gabriel is forced to confront her about the subject of her presentation – research that conflicts with his own. And in Oxford, several individuals from their past appear, including an old nemesis intent on humiliating Julia and exposing one of Gabriel’s darkest secrets. In an effort to confront his remaining demons, Gabriel begins a quest to discover more about his biological parents, beginning a chain of events that has startling repercussions for himself, Julianne, and his hope of having a family.

Best of Luck to everyone who enters. Happy Reading

Friday 1 November 2013

Happy And Blessed Samhain 2013

Hello my loves and welcome the blessed new year!!!! I hope your Samhain was amazing and made you happy, reflective and determined that the new Year bring much better news, or even carry on the news you have been listening to.

Mine was great filled with lots of laughter, and love from siblings and bonding moments, especially over Scandal which totally slayed last night, but I digress.  There are many new plans in the works, wonderful ideas to share and a new determination to not only explore my faith, but the walk the talk even more in the coming year and share it with y'all as much as I can. It's going to be EPIC!!!

Are y'all ready?? Well come on then, let's get started.

Welcome in the New Year
With Brightest Blessings and much Love and Light

Sunday 16 June 2013

I totally Apologize

My computer broke recently and all the posts I need to create my blog posts are on there, yeah I know backing up your blog and info is smart we'll just go ahead and call me dumb now.  It should be back in a week or two and I will be back to regular scheduled posts and all the fun stuff will come back then.

I'm typing this from a tablet I don't have the full capailities like a computer can. (it's the kindle0

Thank You and see you in a few weeks I love y'all