Saturday, 7 January 2012

It's 2012 and the same old shyt just a different year...


Yesterday Mrs. B posted a link to a website (which I will not be linking to, no need to give the site unnecessary traffic) that had pirated books on their pages.  I'm a ebook fanatic, but come on, ebooks are way cheaper than the actual book, why steal it when you can pay a discounted price on Barnes and Noble or Amazon? They eventually took it down; after they had been contacted by several of the authors who wrote about it on Mrs.B's page, as well as someone from Llewellyn. I know I know so many people have issues with some of their books, but consider that for many many years they were the only ones publishing ANY books, other than authors or obscure hard to find college publishing companies, without Llewellyn, many of the companies that have come along wouldn't be there, and MANY of the authors who are out NOW wouldn't have had any books to read that sparked their interest which made them eventually write their own, so hate all you want, but they are necessary.
In response, Mrs. B formed an awesome group idea, you can find out more about it here. It has always been my policy of purchase two books and donate one tot he library, but I noticed that those books disappear fairly quickly, which goes back to people stealing because they don't want others to learn about the stuff, or people hanging on to it because they can't afford to purchase their own and want this copy. But I like Mrs. B's idea.

This week I personally was faced with the over sharing that takes place on the Internet; when I watched a video by a young woman who had pledged to my sorority then 'found God' (nothing wrong with that, grow, change embrace your faith), and made it her decision to SHARE all of our initiation rituals, pledging secrets and things only sorors should know on the fracking internet, because to her our organisation encouraged "pagan and idol worship because some our symbols are from the Greek mythology", O_o it's a GREEK sorority, of course we are going to have something Greek on our shield. She kept excusing her behaviour by saying she only owes God her word and not man, UMMM excuse me much, but these videos have shown your character, if you ever interview to work anywhere sensitive information your not getting that job. Why?? You don't know how to keep your mouth shut. You put your real name out there with these videos, you showed who you really are and you must deal with repercussions of this. Okay, you have decided you no longer agree with our policies and our traditions, turn in you pledge pin and go sit in a corner, no one needs to hear from you, there is no need to share all our information with those who haven't BUSTED THEIR ASSES TO EARN THE RIGHT TO KNOW!!! Pledging to any Greek Letter Organisation is a Privilege not a right!! As I watched the video I realised also she kept repeating that she owed no one anything, as if attempting to not just convince us, but herself, I could feel the disquiet that her actions caused her but she did them anyway, WHY? so you can say you  got back at the women you didn't get along with???  It's one thing if your faith has changed and you feel the need to speak up about something criminal or drastically wrong, but there are ways to do things that didn't include giving our information away. I just don't get it, You know what?? Whatever!!!

This incident was exasperated when out of curiosity I googled our ritual book and someone had posted the WHOLE fracking book online I mean really?? Do people not know what discretion is? Do people not understand that you have to earn the right to know our business? * Walking away before my blood pressure goes up*

This morning my sister went to our car which we parked only a few cars down from our normal spot and there was a hanger stuck inside the door, some Crackheaded fiend ( don't really know if they were on crack or not, but only a goddamn thief would pick my car, it's not the oldest car, nor is it the nicest, not sure why they choose my car) was attempting to steal our car, i was never so happy to have an old Toyota than I was at that moment because they couldn't use the hanger to pull up the lock, so they abandoned the project. Le Huge Sigh. I live next to Yale University, arguably one of the best colleges in the United States if not the World, I live on a quite street of older well maintained homes with lots of families and our condo building, it's not the 'ghetto' or even close, yet this came to our "nice" neighbourhood.  I don't know why I am surprised they opened a Apple store a few weeks ago, only two blocks away from me, and right next to the Yale Bookstore, and on it's first night they were robbed. I mean really?? And then people wonder why they can't have nice things? It's because of bullshyt moves like this.

The one highlight of my week? This is my YT buddy Fran, she makes awesome Loc videos, she also makes awesome, hilarious, poignant & socially relevant videos, this one?? Hits the nail on the head, and has blown up all over the place. I love it!!!


And with that here endeth, my first week of the New Year
YAYAY!! ( oh frack it I'm outta here for today, I also know there are probably a million and one (hyperbole I know) punctuation violations in this post, as well as linguistic errors, it is a rant, not my thesis)

Friday, 6 January 2012

True Life: I'm Losing my Sight

A side view of your eye, and my eye


I was hanging at my parents house yesterday and happened to catch the show true Life, which is and has always gone above and beyond in showcasing the different aspects that affect today's generation.  As I was watching the show, I kept remembering hearing my doctor's voice as he explained to me my disease, watching the doctor on the show reminded me so much of mine. Watching these kids learn to handle their disease, really reminded me of my struggle to accept my prognosis.  Friday's show really hit home for me as a woman who suffers from Keratoconus, I learned about this disease when I was getting ready to go to medical school, I wanted to become an OB/GYN, which is a strong surgical background, which means you have to have a pretty good eyesight. This complicated things drastically, because as the disease progresses, for some it can lead to blindness, which isn't my case yet, but pretty damn close.

After high school, my vision began to change somewhat and I went and got glasses, then contacts (because I still did sports which meant I couldn't do glasses, gymnastics and cheerleading mostly), not too long after I received my contacts I noticed I couldn't really focus on the computer screen; I thought perhaps my contacts where off somehow and went back to get them changed, my eye doctor noticed that my right eye prescription had changed drastically and insisted I get tested for diabetes. 

I made an appointment that same day with my nurse practitioner and went in, I wasn't diabetic, but once I described all my symptoms she did a CBC and a complete blood panel to rule other things out.  Being me, I called up my uncle who was a Dr and gave him all my symptoms & told him my suspicions, he suggested I speak to my Dr, but he concurred with my diagnosis (gotta love family, keep in mind, I have a nursing background and was on my way to medical school, so, my uncle knew I wasn't just blowing smoke or wasn't being "hysterical").  I went back to my APRN, and with my Dr. we checked out everything, ran all the tests, and my blood panel came back with the numbers that placed me within the range of having Lupus.  We believed that this was helping to affect my eyesight as well, and I coordinated with my doctors, and was given the recommendation of seeing a specialist who dealt with Keratoconus
My first appointment, I was the youngest person in their waiting room, almost everyone else was in their late 50s or older and had other eye issues. When we did my exam the nurse retook the eye test three times because she couldn't believe my numbers where so high. When she left the examination room was the first time I realised how this  disease was truly going to affect my life, and I knew that all the hope I was holding on to wasn't going to fix it, and I broke down, right there at the age of 24 I had been hit with two diseases with no cures, and no rhythm or reason to them. Everything I had hoped for changed.

Before the doctor came in, i pulled myself together, and said I could do this,  it was just something else to work through. No matter how much I clung to my hope, it would die a little more each time as we attempted to figure out which contacts would fit m,, my prescription was so unique my contacts would have to be custom made.  Even before the contacts were made, my eyesight changed again and we had to send back the sample and redo the prescription.

Eventually the contact manufacturer sent a representative, who decided I needed to layer my contacts to be able to see, one soft contact with a prescription then my rigid contact on top to really be able to see. Grand total for all of this?? $600 ....per eye. I didn't mind though I would be able to see, for the first time in a long time without squinting, without any blurriness. 
What my screen looks like to me, as I type

Each time I notice I have to increase the screen view so I can see, heck even to type this, I get pissed. I had huge goals for myself, and due to a unique genetic expression I have had to give up much to my diseases:
Believe me readers this isn't a pity party, there are women who live with Lupus who truly suffer with this disease, and I have had some pretty good years considering. I try really hard not to let it get to me, but when I see shows like this I'm reminded of just how good I have it, and just how bad for some it can get.  Although there is no cure, there are treatments, and each is progressively more aggressive & expensive, from contacts like mine, then comes Intact plastic rings: to pull flat the cornea, to corneal transplant which is the most radical, because it requires a donor cornea.

Watching the young woman who was losing her sight the further her pregnancy advanced made me so sad, cause there would be so much she would never 'see' in her child's life so much she would miss out on.  The little things most of us take for granted, like the expression on a child's face that lets you know they really don't like something, or their delight in little things, yes she will be able to feel, and touch her child to learn so much about them, but something, especially when you could see them before, hit below the belt, and no matter how much we tell ourselves that it's irrational to feel that way, it doesn't matter, it still hurts, that little by little the things you once took for granted are stripped away from you.

I don't by any means believe those who are visually impaired are some how less, but no mater how beautifully described, or how talented the observer at bending words, somethings in this world are truly meant to be seen.

Learn more about Keratoconus here.
All Images courtesy of Bing.com/keratoconus, and "sunset"
Thanks for stopping by and reading
Be Blessed

Tuesday, 3 January 2012

How Many of these have you read??

there is a post going around on facebook asking (yes i have nerdy friends) how many of these have you read so far, I believe it said something like only 10 of them have been read by people so i thought I would share and ask you to share either in the comments or in your own blog post just how many you have read. 


Being a teacher's daughter I have read 30 of these yes my summers included book reports which had to be well written and included a source page, and proper annotations. FUN FUN!!  I was THAT kid!!   I'm going to highlight the ones I have read and put the total on the bottom.  This year as part of my challenge list I will be attempting to knock as many of these 'classics' off, how many are you going to read? How will you stack up?

Blue means I have read them


Pride and Prejudice -
The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien -
 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte -
 

Harry Potter series - JK Rowling -
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee -

The Bible= 
Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte -
Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell -
His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman -
 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens -
 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott -
 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy –
 
Catch 22 - Joseph Heller -
 Complete Works of Shakespeare -
 
Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier -
 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien -

 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk -
 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger -
 The Time Traveler’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger -
 Middlemarch - George Eliot -
 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell -
 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald -
 Bleak House - Charles Dickens -
 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy -
 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams -

Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky -
Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck -
 
Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll -
 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame -
 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy -
 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens -
 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis -
 Emma - Jane Austen -
 Persuasion - Jane Austen -
The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis -
 
Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres -
 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden -
Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne - 

Animal Farm - George Orwell -
 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown -
 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving -
 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins -
Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery - 

Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy -
 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood -
 Lord of the Flies - William Golding -
 Atonement - Ian McEwan -
 Life of Pi - Yann Martel -
 Dune - Frank Herbert -
 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons -
 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen -
 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth -
 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon -
 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens -
 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley -
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night - Mark Haddon -
 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez -
 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck -
 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov -
 The Secret History - Donna Tartt -
 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold -
Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas-

 On The Road - Jack Kerouac -
 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy -
 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding -
 
Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie –
 Moby Dick - Herman Melville -
 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens -
Dracula - Bram Stoker -
 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett -
 
Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson -
 Ulysses - James Joyce -
 The Inferno – Dante -
 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome -
 Germinal - Emile Zola -
 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray -
 Possession - AS Byatt –
A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens -
 
Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell -
 The Color Purple - Alice Walker -  The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro -
 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert -
 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry -
 Charlotte’s Web - EB White -
 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom -
 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle -
 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton -
Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad -
 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery -
 
The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks -
Watership Down - Richard Adams -
A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole -
A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute -
The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas -
Hamlet - William Shakespeare -
 

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory -
 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo -

total I have read: 30
Read in 2012:
Left to read:


Let's get NERDY!!!

12 Days of Mithra-mas Day 10

On the Tenth day of Yule, 
My true love sent to me
Ten Lords a Leaping
Nine Drummer Drumming
Eight Ladies Dancing
Seven Swans a Swimming
Six Geese a Laying
Five Gold Rings
Four Colly Birds
Three French Hens
Two Turtledoves 
& a Partridge in a Perdix


January 04
According to scholars, the 12 days of Christmas fell outside of the normal calendar, & as such these days were considered special intercalary days. In the Egyptian Calendar, there were several days at the end of each year, in which nothing about government was done, no work beyond making breakfast, no high worship days, & no trading was done on these days either.
Some state that the days of the 12 days represent each month of the new year and the weather was watched closely to see how the year's month would be. If we accept that then the 10th day represents October, during Hallowe'en the Celts drove their animals between fires to burn away any disease or 'evil' spirits. They also would leap over the flames or some walked between the twin flames. ( a la Jack Be Nimble, Jack be quick, Jack jumped over the Candlestick)
If we also trace the history of the carol, you will note that it was popular during the middle ages, as such it could be describing the menu of a Grand Feast, as well as it's activities, since there are drummers, as well as women dancing, one can conclude that the Lords are simply enjoying the music provided by the minstrels are doing the highly stylised dances of the middle ages.
How You can incorporate the Spirit of Today:

Dance like no one is watching!!! Turn on some seriously good music and just ham let your body move
Perform your own Bonfire ritual, have no space for a bonfire?? How about lighting two candles and jumping over them? or in between?
Purify your home with music, either drums or whatever you play, go throughout your home harmonising the energy of the home.
Take a 'leap' of faith, do something for someone today, believe a little more in a 'myth'
Joyfully and enthusiastically throw yourself into your day and let the spirit of the Leaping Lords run through you!!

Whatever you choose to do to celebrate the Leaping Lords have fun and be Blessed

Happy Conventional New Year!!

Sunday, 1 January 2012

Blessings &Happy New Year

Many and Varied Blessings upon you and your family. If 2011 wasn't your year, guess what?? You get a whole new bright shiny new one!!!!!

Welcome in Baby New Year, and kick Old Man TIme out and let's get started on our new Blessed New Year!!!!